When you get a chance to sit down and close your eyes for a minute, do you ever wonder how you got to this point in your life? How everything either came into place or is it out of place? I know I do, I am in a moment of my life, where the truth is something I want to hide from. Do I like where I am standing? Am I just going to cruise down the road I am on, or am I going to take control of the wheel? Ugh, this is a very difficult part in life.
I am finally 23 and for the last five to seven years I have wondered to myself, what have I been doing? I've been slacking, in denial, fear, and procrastination. Two and a half years ago I was pregnant with my daughter and I was working a dead end job with no college degree. Five months after I gave birth to my daughter, I decided to attend hair school because it was quick and my mom talked me into the business. Soon to be a year, I was hired into a salon and I haven't really build a clientele, the company always talk about, "If you're a great stylist, you should have a full book of clients within five years..."etc. It's almost a year and I do have some people that I do see quite often, which I am happy about but at times I don't feel happy enough to do what I am doing. I keep wondering what it is that gets to me about my profession. I love coloring people hair, cutting... no so much. I don't mind the blowdrying or the flat ironing, up-dos are not my strongest suite but I am willing to do them.
Why am I unhappy? Is it because of the people I work with? No... Granted that some of them are a bit annoying but who doesn't have annoying employees. Maybe it is the people that comes through the door and are crazy enough to want something that they cannot have in a million years. Can't be, those people are who makes my days and makes me smile. Deep down they give me a great chuckle. I think it's because the fact we have one of the worst insurance provided for us, it's a reimbursement plan but the problem is that it only helps pay $60 of your bill. Or because EVERYONE has to MAKE their RETAIL GOALS or you will just be shunned onto a list of NO WALK-INS because you don't want your clients to spend money on products that they can live without. Trying to play a part as a sales person is difficult, yes I do get a small commission paycheck IF I go over my retail goal. To be honest, I am a bit of a frugal person. Or maybe because my boss is a mean butt-head and he has a bi-polar attitude. He is a huge hypocrite, when someone does something not to his liking he becomes power hungry but he can do the same, due to the fact that he is a manager. He's just a manager not a leader. As I am venting out my frustration, I am no longer frustrated. One thing I know for sure, I don't want to be a hairstylist for long.
Now, it leads to this question, what am I going to do with my life?
